Yeah~~ Grey in coloured match my feeling now. Yesterday night has had a very inconceivable matter. That was family problem therefore was not convenient to share it out actually. Was only wanted to give vent. If not the blood vessel was going to explode quickly. I had not thought the younger sister will such do. For entire family she discussed one all day, but useless. She said that is my mistake, if only I do not shout her, does not tell my parent, then she such will do. What is really my mistake? She said unexpectedly is my fault, and so I apologize with her. Entire family heart was pale. To her, only a character may describe that ~ is disappointed. Why didn't she ever think that her manner has the problem very much? At heart can only think is our entire family is not good to her, is unfair to her. Why didn't she ever think the reason I can go out often than her? Couldn't she think logically and don't compare between us as I'm 18th but she's only 16th? I went out often because I appreciate all the chances of gathering. Didn't she think honestly that did I went out often like this when I'm 16th? I could swear that I start to go out during this holiday after SPM!! I did explain this to her yet she said "Why 18 years old can go out often but 16 years old cannot?" I felt I'm stupid to explain so much to her at once. She blamed us to care her. She said she doesn't need it at all. My parent did not rest all day, just becaused of her. I certainly have not rested too, because I moved to the living room to rest. Although full of terror there, but that was better than sleep with her I thought.
I wish to leave here and go ahead my study, new surrounding and new friends as soon as possible. My feeling did turn better after singing in Meetoto. I got lot of vote and so money =) People in game is much more better than those in reality. That's the true and also the fact. That's my currently thought anyway. Doesn't mean the next second, minute, hour, month, year I will have the same thought. I learn guitar by myself recently. Hope got improvement soon. ^^V
I wish to leave here and go ahead my study, new surrounding and new friends as soon as possible. My feeling did turn better after singing in Meetoto. I got lot of vote and so money =) People in game is much more better than those in reality. That's the true and also the fact. That's my currently thought anyway. Doesn't mean the next second, minute, hour, month, year I will have the same thought. I learn guitar by myself recently. Hope got improvement soon. ^^V
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